We are some place that isn’t now, with our bougainvil­lea shorts in a tan­gle, and the salt air fresh on our florid lips — but there are no flow­ers here, no viney pop-ups, no scar­let puff-balls blow­ing light. We are peo­ple who aren’t real­ly us, changed by the falling cur­tains and blocks of ice, the spasms under sheet­ed clouds of shriek­ing rain, that pocked our arms with scars like bite marks… cin­der stars… How did we change so fast, drop­ping our books and wigs in haste, dazed by the sil­ver rip­ples in the sky that seemed to know our secret wants and needs…? We fell hard, want­i­ng to be known, hurt­ing to be had… as one by one we took the gelatin host, mold­ed into our lungs so every breath we drew was stuck with the gum of who we couldn’t be, a thick­ened gasp of pass­ing phan­toms… Shak­ing our heads, arms hack­ing the air, we fled — but how do you flee the sky? — we stopped — or were we com­mand­ed to stop? — we set­tled — is that the term for falling down? — for­ev­er rest­less in our toes and lobes, heavy to sit and light to think. We are hap­pen­ing some­time that isn’t where we are, in a seam of a seal we can’t remem­ber or describe… and pace the quad­rant up and down, and claw the ether as if it were fit­ted stone, and glance over our shoul­ders in ner­vous twists as if we were com­ing to get our­selves, pale and dri­ven and bla­zoned with revenge…

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